been failing .. wow .. so many things happened till my mind was blank .
knowing that going to france wasnt a good choice for studies ..
so mafan .. but yesterday was a total break down for me , not to mention
being disappointed but at the same time , small anger was in me ..
but i have forgiven everything .. i felt betrayed but daph have gave my
choices .. no i should say she was directing me ... back to france idea ..
was so sad , bigger hit in my life as nth had happened like that .. that i
was thinkning to run to france and live in a comfort zone .. joy also have
been very emo there as she felt freaky lonely .. i actually wanted to run there
and today i ask my mum again , can i go france and should i go france ..
she once again said siao ... go for what .. of course , things holding me back
maybe daph ju xin jo fioan cia ..we dun meet very often but i am sure no matter
what happened,attitude will be there for me . girlfriends like them which i
didnt regretted dropping to n level .. i love u gals dunno why must event
happen then we will start really thinkning of people's good ... girlfrens like u guys
comfort me alot just by hearing ur voices ... i felt everything was fake when i look at
the things happening now and the letters or should i say letter .. was a totally different
i saw the promises is so different . promises u made was like a fake .stronger ? nah .. nothing
like this .. been suffering , so i voice things out here .. as i will just leave what was left behind undone .. from today
onwards i will not be be affected by emotions as i will put my energy on studies to try and pass
.. so today will be the day i declare end of sufferings ...we will be gd fren though , like what
said , take things slow .. hope no more affecttion from what people says ..